I’ve never been big on jumping on bandwagons for what’s “hot” RIGHT NOW. I was totally into vampires before True Blood and Twilight, and now that they are everywhere, I’ve lost my interest…
So, it totally makes sense I’ve immersed myself in Ally Mcbeal about twelve years past its mainstream popularity. It’s just old enough to be “vintage cool.”
My roommates and I don’t have a television, so I’ve enjoyed the first two seasons, and almost the third season, via itunes. It’s been awhile since I’ve felt attached to television characters. But I have totally jumped into the world of Ally Mcbeal, and found myself crying yesterday when one of the characters died! “BILLY DIES?!” I text my friend, Chris, who had turned me on to the show in the first place…
What the hell! I did not sign up for death. I have not been that upset about a character dying since Dana died on the L WORD.
Death has been pre occupying my thoughts lately. More so, the fragility of life. Perhaps my obsession with vampires had to do with their immortality? Sure, they are evil and suck blood, but they look SEXY doing it. More importantly, they are immortal and have FOREVER to learn lessons, have experiences they’ve always wanted, travel, marry another person once a century. Who cares if it all happens in the dark?
Sunday night, I had the pleasure of chatting with Mr. David Spaltro. His next film, THINGS I DON’T UNDERSTAND (TIDU on IMDB), begins filming April 3rd. One of the themes it explores is death. “Are you afraid of dying? What do you think happens when we die?” He asked me. “Wow,” I said, deciding if he really wanted to GO there with me. Let’s face it, I have a million ideas and could talk for hours on my spiritual beliefs.
But what is it about death that affects us so? Is it the fear of the unknown? The short life we have and all that we want to accomplish? Or is it that any moment, our life could be taken from us? It’s a strange thought, how fragile we humans are. Yet we will throw ourselves out of planes to go sky diving, feeling invincible.
I thought I had dealt with the idea of death after my 2005 Semester at Sea experience (Semester at Sea, Storm Stories), but apparently not. Yoga practice is all about letting go. But I’m not sure if I’ll ever be ready to let go of life. Perhaps that’s the biggest challenge of this journey called life. Learning to let go of people, memories, ideas, are hard enough. That’s why it is SO IMPORTANT to enjoy the journey. Because, one day it will be no more. You will actually arrive at the particular destination, the end. Script your life accordingly, with an abundance of laughs and smiles.
As William Ross Wallace said, “Every man dies – Not every man really lives.”
I text David: “You’re in my blog. It’s about death. I’ll send it to you.”
His response: “Ha! You win creepiest txt of 2011…”